So what about the lake, it was quiet and the walk was good. This winter has been cold for longer than I remember. I know the very cold spell has passed for now, but the lakes and canals still have ice. Memory does play tricks and the fact that it is only in the last few years that I have paid real attention. anyway the stand out memory was walking along and out of the general quiet overhearing, is the only way I have of describing it, the tweeting and calling of small birds and peering into branches of the nearest thicket seeing not much and then as I got my eye in catching sight of lots of small blobs hopping around in the branches. I eventually worked out there were siskins and redpoll and very probably others in there, but I had reached the limit of my identification skills. Trying to take a picture was fun, not. they just did not want to keep still, just flitting from branch to twig and back again. Then it went quite and they stayed still. I looked up to catch a sparrowhawk drift overhead.
This all took probably 2 - 3 min, but , I decided to wander on and get back to the car. It did mean I got to drink half a cup of tea before I had to go take daughter number 1 and rescue number 2.
In the middle of this I met up with Lauren, who likes my pictures and we talked through some of the ideas that she

It was also good for me to talk about my pictures to listen to some one else read things into them that I have not thought about. I remember my context for the image. There were a couple of pics that Lauren had a different perspective and used the image to illustrate whole set of different things that I just never even thought of.
Change is hard, I like to be able to predict the future and if someone or something else is going to change the rules I want six months notice and several dry runs before I agree to it. If only!!
But if I don't like where I am now, if I am not happy, what is there to do. The problem for me has often been that I have not been happy and tried to change the world around me( usually on a small scale) and have become even more frustrated when I am still not happy. So trying to change job, change the relationship. What needs to change is me, maybe even as small as the way I look at the world. As you know getting supertankers to change course is hard and takes a long time.
I am happier now than for all my adult life and I do remember being fairly miserable as a teenager.
So onwards before I begin analyse everything to death.
Bedtime
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